Thursday, April 30, 2009
सर्व काही आलबेल...
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
home schooling..open schooling...non-schooling....
After getting married having kid was a very obvious option. Eventually it happened and amal arrived in our lives. I'd thought a lot about having kids, and how i would raise them, how would i help them grow up with sensible rational approach. who grow up into a sensitive, inelligent and integrated persona. How i would love them to see growing in nature, playing in nature and learning from nature.
Personally i never enjoyed my schooling days, except for the extra curricular activities, which offered me to stay out of class often. And that was an incentive to finish it without failing. To pass the exams was never so difficult with the minimum required efforts put in.
There, this idea came to me, to home-school / non-school or put my child in an open school. Before amal's arrival the thought did not sound so difficult as i was looking at it as a third party or an outsider i guess. But now as amal has already turned 2 years and the obvious next step would be of putting him in some school pops up. All the thoughts gushing at the same time, positive / negative all together, am rendered totally confused. Not able to clearly see the situation.
So many people around have to say so many different things on the topic..they are not going to take decision on my behalf but they are there to put forth all the possibilities pleasant as well as non-so-pleasant ones. Its good in a way..but on my side it calls for a lot more courage and in depth knowledge...
If you have anything to say, please feel free to respond. If you know someone dealing the issue in similar ways please let me know. If you can help me out in getting resources in or around mumbai it would be welcome.
- Sonal modak
Friday, April 24, 2009
LAVASA
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
DITTO...
Friday, April 17, 2009
‘गुण गाईन आवडी’
random thoughts...
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Monday, April 06, 2009
still i am free...
I can't pass this exam, I just don't have the brain for calculus.
I can't help the fact that I was born a man or a woman. Certain things come naturally for certain types of people. (Says the man who can't take care of his children or the woman who can't fix her car.)
I'm no good at this; I guess I just wasn't made to go to college.
Gee, I'm sorry about last night. I guess my hormones just got out of control.
I'm sorry I bit your head off yesterday. I must be premenstrual.
I don't know what happened. I guess the beer made me crazy.
In all above statements, I am identifying myself with one of the pictures of me I find embedded on my memory....I am my body or my brain or my personality or my hormones....In each of these cases, I am deceiving myself.
I am more than just these, and no matter how I try to avoid it, I am free.
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
about illusion..reality..interpretation...!
जीवन की राहो में आना या जाना बताके नही होता है
जाते कही है मगर जानते ना के आना वही होता है
खोने के जिद में ये क्यो भूलते हो के पाना भी खोता है...
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
emotionally interrupted...
i told him i dont want to work on relationship. See! this is what happens! the more you are attached to a person, the more your whole life and emotions are manoeurved by the moods and whims of that person. unstability of feelings is a state of suffering...!
SIGH.
and there really has a need for space. just like you. you already know he doesn’t have much space and privacy of his own. he's forced to do things which he might not feel like doing actually...
(the cynical, low self-esteem) i shouldn’t have done dat. maybe it is not legitimate for me to. i am not so significant enough to be granted wat i want from him.
but you know he has never thought of you as a troublesome nuisance to be around with. you already know that. and you know that if ever he needs to enforce limits, boundaries, rules.. that’s his way of managing his work. it is as objective as can be, and nothing personal against you.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
ABSURD !!!
SHE: hello
khup divsanni
HE: ya
office madhe orkut restrict kelay
SHE: so how r things at ur end?
oh
HE: fn
and u?
SHE: fine. too hectic. lil tired..
HE: u wl have a long break in this mango season rt?
SHE: not really...generally before monsoon there is a rush on our site to complete the work...so its gonna more hectic
monsoon goes lil slow
HE: hmmnn....so busy....we all do not have work only....recession has affected tremendously to our industry
all r on gas
SHE: yeah diff fields r affected on diff level
*levels
actually amche projects mostly shifting or make shift arrangement wale aahet sadhya...people r spending money to reduce their expenditure
HE: agreed
its gd na that u r not affected....my wifes wing is being closed....lot of tension....but u see we have to face it
SHE: yeah...but running around for lesser fees is not affordable...office expenses kami nahi hot na tyane.
anyway...u've to face it is the bottom line
HE: hmmnnn thats true....but when u r entrepeunor then these things r anticipated
ya
mag baki kay...hows amal and minal?
SHE: both r good. amalchi masti an dhadpad chaluch aahe
hey wats ur kids name?
HE: :)
SHE: kay zala?
HE: Tanisha....I bet tichi masti dhoodgos and dhadpad jasta aahe....we r really tired running after her
SHE: nice name
HE: Hmmnnn...my wife choose it....I was for "Kimaya"...but as usual she never listens to me
SHE: :) so many complains u 've for her !!
HE: Facts r not complaints
I like and luv her but facts remain unchanged
DC???
SHE: dint recieve ur messages
HE: hi...got disconnected
SHE: n no got them all together
maybe some network problem
HE: ya
SHE: mag aaj kay karnar kaam nasel tar?
HE: so everybody may nt like you....and morever ur hubby may also hv sm factual complaint rt?
today I m workin fm home
so chatting fm personal PC
SHE: yeah he might have. never told me till now.
ok
HE: We dont dare to tell these to wives
SHE: my god...tu tar husband X wife teams karun taklelya distahet
HE: those r already created....I m only a team player
SHE: hmm then its lil diff in our case...generally we work together as a single team...so we have less factual complains as we keep sortng them out on regular basis :)
HE: Dont mix personal with proffession....nd its really pleasure to hear that u r different only I should hear that from minal too
SHE: :) sure
HE: so tu evda vel chat kartes....doesnt it affect ur work....u dont report to anybody I understand
SHE: ? dint get u
aapn kiti taas bolto aahot re ?
HE: I meant there may be other friends like me....so how can u spare so much time in this hectic schedule?....I meant that U r only the boss so it may be possible
SHE: tevhda vel tar me office madhe hi konashi na konashi bolte...productivity is not related to man hours of work put in...i hope u undrstand wat i mean
HE: gr8 multitasking women....ya I do understand
SHE: am sorry to say but there is no online friends like u...
HE: I belive u....but y r u sorry for that?....u can have if u wish too
SHE: me tujha kay ghoda marlay ka? y r u gettgin so personal about things?
am sure y ur wife is not happy with u !!
wish u happy life togther...
HE: Hey Y r u geeting annoyed....jus asked casually....I like chatting with u....but was worried that I may b disturbing so I asked....SORRY
HE: I will rectify you....my wife is very much happy with me.....and even I m....a couple of differences cannot create permanant rift or dislike
SHE: am failing to understand the whole thing now !!!
am very sorry dat i said dat..i've no right to say such things...but i dint understand y the hell did u say dat all..? wat do u think of me?
HE: Females r complex but they do not understand complex things thats all I can say :)
SHE: i dont think we r so close dat we can pass such comments for each otehr...me chating karen kinva nahi ani te karunahi maza kaam sampven kinva nahi...wat do u have to do with this?
forget it !!
HE: Forgot ....now cool pls....I didnt think u r so short tempered
SHE: whatever. just forget it n leave me alone.
if u think females r so dumb...y do u go n approch them?
u should find some good inttelectual company in ur own male community rihgt?
HE: Its already there....but I m also expanding with some exceptions from other community....I had searched one...but it seems that I will soon loose her
HE: Wtever might be at least say byee before leaving.....neways sorry againg if I have raised ur tempo
byee
SHE: its not a question of just saying by. the thing is dat am not used to this male-female grouping...thankfully aajparyanta mala me female aslyachi janeev konich itkya teevrateni karun navhati dili..so i got annoyed...kam kartanna kinva gappa martanna hya goshti madhe yeu nayet asa mala personally vatta pan u have all the freedom to think anyway
thanks for bringing the reality so clearly in front of me !!!
bye n wish u best luck !!
HE: On elast comment...Belive me I do not think that such conversation should have been taken so seriously....I cassually passed some remarks for the sake of communication...may be I was rong....I can now realize that there may be cretain sensative areas wherein you shoudnt touch....I do hold respect for females.....and lastly wish you the same
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Randy Pausch: Childhood Dreams Lecture
Randy's message is about following your dreams, dealing with the ones that don't come true and having fun along the way. His talk has been viewed by more than 6 million people. He's a co-author of a best-selling book and has testified before Congress about pancreatic cancer, a disease that kills 33,000 Americans each year. He says the lessons were meant as a "message in a bottle" for his kids. so making it available here as it isn't too late to listen, learn and really live.
Randy Pausch died on July 25, 2008. But in his process, he teached millions of people about living. That's what i want to share with you.
http://www.cmu.edu/homepage/multimedia/randy-pausch-lecture.shtml
Thursday, March 19, 2009
बसलो असता
बसलो असता निवांत रात्री, टकटक झाली दारावरती
दार उघडता आत सरकली, कोणी व्यक्ती
बारिकतेने बघता कळले, हुबेहुब ती प्रतिमा माझी दुसरी होती
घाबरलो मी, चाचरलो मी, पुसले त्याला, कोण कशाला
स्मित संभावित करुनि म्हणे तो, पिशाच्च मी तव
गतकाळाच्या थडग्यामधला निवास कोंदट असह्य झाला, म्हणुनी आलो
पिशाच्च, पण ते माझे होते, आपुलकीने स्वागत केले, गप्पा झाल्या
दुरपणाचे अंतर सरले, आठवणींचे पर्व चाळता काळिज कढले
बाद-बखेडे कधी पेटता, कृद्ध शार्दुलासम गुरगुरलो
प्रेम द्वेष हास्यांत रंगता स्वरही चढले
अखेर होता पहात, गेला एक आमुच्यामधला निघुनी
गेला कोण अन् कोण राहिला हे मज आता जन्मभराचे कोडे पडले...
- कुसुमाग्रज
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...
ननंद चुटकी लेवे
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...
सांस गारी देवे
देवर समझा लेवे
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...
छोडा बाबुलका अंगना
भावे डेरा पिया का
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...
सैंया है ब्यापारी
चले है परदेस
सुरतिया निहारु
जियरा भारी होवे
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...
बुशर्ट पहिने
खाइके बिडा पान
पुरे रायपुर से अलग है
सैंयाजीकी शान
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...
वाह काय गाणं आहे... मुलगी कुठेही राहो, मोडर्न असो वा पारंपारीक... हे गाणं बरोबर भिडतं !!!
शब्दांच्या बरोबरीने संगीताची साथ आहे... नुसते शब्द वाचून बहुतेक तसा effect होणार नाही...
आजचा धडा :
कोणतेसे सर बर्नार्ड शाँ बरोबर म्हणून गेलेत, "when people ask for opinions, all they want is praise."
better you be updated on the same, or else be ready to face the consequenses...i just did.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
एकांताचं तळं
पाणीही त्याचं नि:शब्द निश्चल
अचानक कुठुन आला वारा चंचल
तळ्याचं पाणी झालं गढुळ गढुळ
कुठलं तळं? कुठला वारा?
एकांताच्या अशा छेडल्या तारा
वा-याच्या जाळ्यांत एकांताच तळं
तळ्याच्या पाण्यातत वा-याच जाळं ...
Monday, March 16, 2009
गुलाल आणि होळी
Saturday, February 28, 2009
IN SEARCH OF OASIS..
A shadow with me all day
Thursday, February 26, 2009
सर्वेसर्वा
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
पैसा बोलता है...
Yeshwant Rao - Jejuri
I know a good one.
His name is Yeshwant Rao
and he's one of the best.
look him up
when you are in Jejuri next.
Of course he's only a second class god
and his place is just outside the main temple.
Outside even of the outer wall.
As if he belonged
among the tradesmen and the lepers.
I've known gods
prettier faced
or straighter laced.
Gods who soak you for your gold.
Gods who soak you for your soul.
Gods who make you walk
on a bed of burning coal.
Gods who put a child inside your wife.
Or a knife inside your enemy.
Gods who tell you how to live your life,
double your money
or triple your land holdings.
Gods who can barely suppress a smile
as you crawl a mile for them.
Gods who will see you drown
if you won't buy them a new crown.
And although I'm sure they're all to be praised,
they're either too symmetrical
or too theatrical for my taste.
Yeshwant Rao,
mass of basalt,
bright as any post box,
the shape of protoplasm
or king size lava pie
thrown against the wall,
without an arm, a leg
or even a single head.
Yeshwant Rao.
He's the god you've got to meet.
If you're short of a limb,
Yeshwant Rao will lend you a hand
and get you back on your feet.
Yeshwant Rao
Does nothing spectacular.
He doesn't promise you the earth
Or book your seat on the next rocket to heaven.
But if any bones are broken,
you know he'll mend them.
He'll make you whole in your body
and hope your spirit will look after itself.
He is merely a kind of a bone-setter.
The only thing is,
as he himself has no heads, hands and feet,
he happens to understand you a little better.
- Arun Kolatkar from JEJURI
annonymous...
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
to my online friends...
हल्ली असं झालंय ना की मित्रमंडळींना भेटायलासुद्धा निमित्तं शोधावी लागतात. सहजच कोणाकडे टवाळक्या करत तासंतास बसलोय असं कधी होतच नाही. सगळेच जण busy. अगदी श्वास सुद्धा मोजून मापून घ्यायला लागलोय आपण. अशा वेळेस intenet through काहीही कारण नसतांना भेटलेल्या व्यक्ती (त्यांना मित्र म्हणावं की नाही ते ठरवलं नाहीये अजून) जास्त जवळच्या (पेक्षा easily accesible) वाटतात. प्रत्यक्ष अंतरामुळे त्यात काही फरक पडत नाही. अशा मित्रांशी बोलतांना मला जास्तं मोकळं वाटतं. काही लागेबांधे जुळलेले नसल्यामुळे असेल बहुतेक. कारण अशावेळी मुडस् वगैरे फारसे मधे येत नाहीत. एकमेकांना पूर्णपणे अनभिज्ञ असल्यामुळे भोवतालच्या परिस्थितीचा आमच्यातल्ला गप्पांवर फारसा प्रभाव पडत नाही. कोणाकडून काही अपेक्षा नाहीत, त्यामुळे काही गमावण्याची भिती नाही. प्रत्यक्षातल्या सर्व नात्यांना समांतर असं हे नातं. जिथे मी 'मी' असते अगदी सर्वतोपरी.
- सोनल मोडक
Thursday, January 22, 2009
HEART IS THE ONLY BROKEN INSTRUMENT THAT WORKS..
झाले विसंवादी गाणे
तबला आणि पेटीचे
लोकहो ऐका जीवनगाणे
पेटीची पट्टी काळी चार
अन् तबल्याचा तर मध्यम ताल
माहीत होते दोघांना
रंगणार नव्हता त्यांचा ख्याल
सूर जुळतील कधीतरी
वाट पाहिली तबल्याने
काळी चारची पट्टी काही
सोडली नाही पेटीने
तबला म्हणाला पेटीला
आता वेगवेगळे गाऊ
आळवताना एकच राग
लयीत वेगळ्या राहु..
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
न हुई गर मेरे मरने से तसल्ली न सही
इम्तिहाँ और भी बाक़ी हो तो ये भी न सही
ख़ार-ख़ार-ए-अलम-ए-हसरत-ए-दीदार तो है
शौक़ गुलचीन-ए-गुलिस्तान-ए-तसल्ली न सही
मय परस्ताँ ख़ूम-ए-मय मूंह से लगाये ही बने
एक दिन गर न हुआ बज़्म में साक़ी न सही
नफ़ज़-ए-क़ैस के है चश्म-ओ-चराग़-ए-सहरा
गर नहीं शम-ए-सियहख़ाना-ए-लैला न सही
एक हंगामे पे मौकूफ़ है घर की रौनक
नोह-ए-ग़म ही सही, नग़्मा-ए-शादी न सही
न सिताइश की तमन्ना न सिले की परवाह्
गर नहीं है मेरे अशार में माने न सही
इशरत-ए-सोहबत-ए-ख़ुबाँ ही ग़नीमत समझो
न हुई "ग़ालिब" अगर उम्र-ए-तबीई न सही
-DIVAN - E - GHALIB