Tuesday, March 31, 2009

about illusion..reality..interpretation...!

जीवन की राहो में आना या जाना बताके नही होता है

जाते कही है मगर जानते ना के आना वही होता है

खोने के जिद में ये क्‍यो भूलते हो के पाना भी खोता है...

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

emotionally interrupted...

if i haven’t felt so much for him, i won’t feel so uptight, fidgety and disappointed. just a line from him, a tone of voice, a hesitation to my request !! enough to make me go right into the boiler burning. voices in my mind started shouting, “he cares more about himself than you!” “you are the silly one who does so many things for him!” “purely your own one-sided attachment!” …
i told him i dont want to work on relationship. See! this is what happens! the more you are attached to a person, the more your whole life and emotions are manoeurved by the moods and whims of that person. unstability of feelings is a state of suffering...!
So, a wise thing to do, is to do nothing. Just paying attention, and then DO NOTHING ! Get back to your own stuff. What arises will pass away. Contemplate on the suffering of this instability of the emotions, the uncontrollability…
SIGH.
then another softer voice says: but he is really focussed on what he is doing. you know that is his priority. he takes work very seriously. could you understand his priorities? and accept that’s his way of dealing with interruption?
"but this may not be true !"
and there really has a need for space. just like you. you already know he doesn’t have much space and privacy of his own. he's forced to do things which he might not feel like doing actually...
"i can’t hear this."
and other voices fight to be heard:
(the cynical, low self-esteem) i shouldn’t have done dat. maybe it is not legitimate for me to. i am not so significant enough to be granted wat i want from him.
but you know he has never thought of you as a troublesome nuisance to be around with. you already know that. and you know that if ever he needs to enforce limits, boundaries, rules.. that’s his way of managing his work. it is as objective as can be, and nothing personal against you.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

ABSURD !!!

HE: hi
SHE: hello
khup divsanni
HE: ya
office madhe orkut restrict kelay
SHE: so how r things at ur end?
oh
HE: fn
and u?
SHE: fine. too hectic. lil tired..
HE: u wl have a long break in this mango season rt?
SHE: not really...generally before monsoon there is a rush on our site to complete the work...so its gonna more hectic
monsoon goes lil slow
HE: hmmnn....so busy....we all do not have work only....recession has affected tremendously to our industry
all r on gas
SHE: yeah diff fields r affected on diff level
*levels
actually amche projects mostly shifting or make shift arrangement wale aahet sadhya...people r spending money to reduce their expenditure
HE: agreed
its gd na that u r not affected....my wifes wing is being closed....lot of tension....but u see we have to face it
SHE: yeah...but running around for lesser fees is not affordable...office expenses kami nahi hot na tyane.
anyway...u've to face it is the bottom line
HE: hmmnnn thats true....but when u r entrepeunor then these things r anticipated
ya
mag baki kay...hows amal and minal?
SHE: both r good. amalchi masti an dhadpad chaluch aahe
hey wats ur kids name?
HE: :)
SHE: kay zala?
HE: Tanisha....I bet tichi masti dhoodgos and dhadpad jasta aahe....we r really tired running after her
SHE: nice name
HE: Hmmnnn...my wife choose it....I was for "Kimaya"...but as usual she never listens to me
SHE: :) so many complains u 've for her !!
HE: Facts r not complaints
I like and luv her but facts remain unchanged
DC???
SHE: dint recieve ur messages
HE: hi...got disconnected
SHE: n no got them all together
maybe some network problem
HE: ya
SHE: mag aaj kay karnar kaam nasel tar?
HE: so everybody may nt like you....and morever ur hubby may also hv sm factual complaint rt?
today I m workin fm home
so chatting fm personal PC
SHE: yeah he might have. never told me till now.
ok
HE: We dont dare to tell these to wives
SHE: my god...tu tar husband X wife teams karun taklelya distahet
HE: those r already created....I m only a team player
SHE: hmm then its lil diff in our case...generally we work together as a single team...so we have less factual complains as we keep sortng them out on regular basis :)
HE: Dont mix personal with proffession....nd its really pleasure to hear that u r different only I should hear that from minal too
SHE: :) sure
HE: so tu evda vel chat kartes....doesnt it affect ur work....u dont report to anybody I understand
SHE: ? dint get u
aapn kiti taas bolto aahot re ?
HE: I meant there may be other friends like me....so how can u spare so much time in this hectic schedule?....I meant that U r only the boss so it may be possible
SHE: tevhda vel tar me office madhe hi konashi na konashi bolte...productivity is not related to man hours of work put in...i hope u undrstand wat i mean
HE: gr8 multitasking women....ya I do understand
SHE: am sorry to say but there is no online friends like u...
HE: I belive u....but y r u sorry for that?....u can have if u wish too
SHE: me tujha kay ghoda marlay ka? y r u gettgin so personal about things?
am sure y ur wife is not happy with u !!
wish u happy life togther...
HE: Hey Y r u geeting annoyed....jus asked casually....I like chatting with u....but was worried that I may b disturbing so I asked....SORRY
HE: I will rectify you....my wife is very much happy with me.....and even I m....a couple of differences cannot create permanant rift or dislike
SHE: am failing to understand the whole thing now !!!
am very sorry dat i said dat..i've no right to say such things...but i dint understand y the hell did u say dat all..? wat do u think of me?
HE: Females r complex but they do not understand complex things thats all I can say :)
SHE: i dont think we r so close dat we can pass such comments for each otehr...me chating karen kinva nahi ani te karunahi maza kaam sampven kinva nahi...wat do u have to do with this?
forget it !!
HE: Forgot ....now cool pls....I didnt think u r so short tempered
SHE: whatever. just forget it n leave me alone.
if u think females r so dumb...y do u go n approch them?
u should find some good inttelectual company in ur own male community rihgt?
HE: Its already there....but I m also expanding with some exceptions from other community....I had searched one...but it seems that I will soon loose her
HE: Wtever might be at least say byee before leaving.....neways sorry againg if I have raised ur tempo
byee
SHE: its not a question of just saying by. the thing is dat am not used to this male-female grouping...thankfully aajparyanta mala me female aslyachi janeev konich itkya teevrateni karun navhati dili..so i got annoyed...kam kartanna kinva gappa martanna hya goshti madhe yeu nayet asa mala personally vatta pan u have all the freedom to think anyway
thanks for bringing the reality so clearly in front of me !!!
bye n wish u best luck !!
HE: On elast comment...Belive me I do not think that such conversation should have been taken so seriously....I cassually passed some remarks for the sake of communication...may be I was rong....I can now realize that there may be cretain sensative areas wherein you shoudnt touch....I do hold respect for females.....and lastly wish you the same

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Randy Pausch: Childhood Dreams Lecture

Randy Pausch was a Professor of Computer Science, Human-Computer Interaction, and Design at Carnegie Mellon University (CMU) in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. In September 2006, Pausch was diagnosed with metastatic pancreatic cancer. Pausch delivered his "Last Lecture," titled "Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams," at CMU on September 18, 2007.

Randy's message is about following your dreams, dealing with the ones that don't come true and having fun along the way. His talk has been viewed by more than 6 million people. He's a co-author of a best-selling book and has testified before Congress about pancreatic cancer, a disease that kills 33,000 Americans each year. He says the lessons were meant as a "message in a bottle" for his kids. so making it available here as it isn't too late to listen, learn and really live.

Randy Pausch died on July 25, 2008. But in his process, he teached millions of people about living. That's what i want to share with you.

http://www.cmu.edu/homepage/multimedia/randy-pausch-lecture.shtml

Thursday, March 19, 2009

बसलो असता निवांत रात्री, टकटक झाली दारावरती
दार उघडता आत सरकली, कोणी व्‍यक्‍ती
बारिकतेने बघता कळले, हुबेहुब ती प्रतिमा माझी दुसरी होती
घाबरलो मी, चाचरलो मी, पुसले त्‍याला, कोण कशाला
स्‍मित संभावित करुनि म्‍हणे तो, पिशाच्‍च मी तव
गतकाळाच्‍या थडग्‍यामधला निवास कोंदट असह्‍य झाला, म्‍हणुनी आलो
पिशाच्‍च, पण ते माझे होते, आपुलकीने स्‍वागत केले, गप्‍पा झाल्‍या
दुरपणाचे अंतर सरले, आठवणींचे पर्व चाळता काळिज कढले
बाद-बखेडे कधी पेटता, कृद्‍ध शार्दुलासम गुरगुरलो
प्रेम द्‍वेष हास्‍यांत रंगता स्‍वरही चढले
अखेर होता पहात, गेला एक आमुच्‍यामधला निघुनी
गेला कोण अन्‌ कोण राहिला हे मज आता जन्‍मभराचे कोडे पडले...

- कुसुमाग्रज

ससुराल गेंदा फुल...

सैंया छेड देवे
ननंद चुटकी लेवे
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...

सांस गारी देवे
देवर समझा लेवे
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...

छोडा बाबुलका अंगना
भावे डेरा पिया का
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...

सैंया है ब्‍यापारी
चले है परदेस
सुरतिया निहारु
जियरा भारी होवे
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...

बुशर्ट पहिने
खाइके बिडा पान
पुरे रायपुर से अलग है
सैंयाजीकी शान
ससुराल गेंदा फुल...

वाह काय गाणं आहे... मुलगी कुठेही राहो, मोडर्न असो वा पारंपारीक... हे गाणं बरोबर भिडतं !!!
शब्‍दांच्‍या बरोबरीने संगीताची साथ आहे... नुसते शब्‍द वाचून बहुतेक तसा effect होणार नाही...

आजचा धडा :

आजच्‍या घडिला आपलं मत प्रामाणिकपणे एखाद्‍याला सांगणं जुनाट समजलं जायला लागलंय !!!
कोणतेसे सर बर्नार्ड शाँ बरोबर म्‍हणून गेलेत, "when people ask for opinions, all they want is praise."

better you be updated on the same, or else be ready to face the consequenses...i just did.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

एकांताचं तळं

एकांताचं तळं, आठवणींनी साचलेलं
पाणीही त्याचं नि:शब्‍द निश्चल

अचानक कुठुन आला वारा चंचल
तळ्‍याचं पाणी झालं गढुळ गढुळ

कुठलं तळं? कुठला वारा?
एकांताच्या अशा छेडल्या तारा

वा-याच्या जाळ्यांत एकांताच तळं
तळ्याच्या पाण्‍यातत वा-याच जाळं ...

Monday, March 16, 2009

गुलाल आणि होळी

मी काही नियमितपणे सिनेमांची परिक्षणं लिहित नाही. पण काही सिनेमे तुम्‍हाला मुळातुनच हलवून सोडतात. अनुराग कश्‍यप यांचा गुलाल असाच एक सिनेमा.
राजकारणाचं भयाण रुप आता आपल्‍यासाठी काही नवं नाही. आणि college politicsही काही लहानसहान बाब नाही राहिलेली आजकाल. स्‍त्रियाही यात कुठे मागे राहिलेल्‍या नाहीत. मुलींना आपण मुलगी असण्‍याचे फायदे कसे उठवायचे हे काही वेगळं शिकावं लागत नाही. उपजतंच हे ज्ञान देव त्‍यांना देतो बहुधा. खेकड्‍यांच्‍या ह्‍या स्‍पर्धेत एकदुसर्‍याची शिडी करुन वर चढत जाणं हेच अंतिम सत्‍य. मनापासुन कोणावर प्रेम कराव आणि नंतर लक्षात यावं की आपण वापरले गेलो आहोत. प्रेम मोठं की सत्ता मोठी?
साधी पण निरुत्तर करणारी कथा.
apt music, very modern still with folk touch and matured lyrics. sure its a must see movie. this movie renders the viewers speechless !!!